My journey has led to a crossroads.
A true crossroads moment is rare. It comes along once–maybe twice–in a lifetime. It’s more than a mere intersection, where one must decide which direction to take toward a particular destination. A crossroads moment, instead, begins with the realization that you have no particular place to go.
A crossroads moment represents the end of a journey, along with the mourning that usually accompanies loss. And it represents the potential start of a new journey, with all its frightening uncertainty and tentative hope.
It has the vague sense of being lost, except there’s nowhere to be . . . other than here.
Staying put is the only wise choice.
A crossroads moment calls for a deep reevaluation of self. My past has contributed to who I am, but God now wants to fashion someone new out of that old me. To join my re-Creator at this crossroads, I have spent the past couple of months in a detailed examination myself in the harsh, unforgiving light of truth.
I have reviewed my Myers-Briggs, my StrengthsFinder, and my Enneagram results. (Please don’t suggest another assessment; I have moved on from this phase.) I participated in the painful affirmation of a 360 Feedback Review and engaged the honest insight of trusted colleagues by asking the questions, “How have you experienced me as a co-worker?” and “What advice would you have for me to improve as a leader?”
I think I have a reasonably objective view of myself, including admirable and shadow qualities. I struggle to make sense of my mixed bag of abilities, education, and experience, which qualify me for a vast array of vocations . . . and, therefore, none in particular. At least none in plain view.
So, at this crossroads, feeling more than a little paralyzed by too many options, I have decided to embrace the moment. I will savor this unsettling freedom and allow God to do His work within me. And I will do the hardest thing of all: wait.
If you think of me, pray that the Holy Spirit will bring clarity.
If you find yourself at your own crossroads moment, I hope these words offer encouragement and insight. I pray you find your path.
7 thoughts on “My Castaway Crossroads”
I came across your website when it was sent to me by my wife. We are at a cross roads in our marriage with some terrible wrecks marking the corners. I’m not sure it’s a cross roads or a road closed portion of the road. I’m not even sure these messages are read here nor if you have time to respond. I’d truly love to communicate with you on my email. The wreckage is at my doing. I could sign it “scared to death” but will leave that for later. Thank you….